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Death of a Flower

  • Writer: Mduduzi Ndlovu
    Mduduzi Ndlovu
  • 46 minutes ago
  • 3 min read

There’s something hauntingly delicate about a flower’s death. It doesn’t happen all at once. There is no dramatic fall, no loud sound. It begins with a slow folding in. Petals that once opened to the sun begin to curl. Color fades. The stem weakens. And by the time we realize it’s dying, it’s already halfway gone.

That’s how it feels when someone begins to unravel inside. That’s how mental health fades a person from the inside out—quietly, invisibly, until the bloom is no longer recognizable.



A wilted flower symbolizing how a person "dies"
Wilted Flower


The Bloom Before


We all start as someone else.

Someone lighter. Someone more hopeful. Someone with stars in their chest.

Before the cracks begin, there is a version of you that believes in people. That looks forward to the next day. That laughs without measuring how loud or how long. That trusts freely. That loves fully.

That version of you had no idea how fragile peace of mind could be. How things like anxiety, depression, trauma, or loss could twist your reflection until you barely recognize it.

That person existed. But they didn’t know yet.

They didn’t know that even the strongest petals bruise under enough weight.


The Withering


Mental health doesn’t collapse you all at once—it leaks through you like a slow poison.

One day, you don’t feel like getting out of bed. Then it’s every day. Smiles start feeling like lies. Friends become background noise.

You forget what excitement felt like. Food loses its taste. Music loses its magic.

You wonder if anyone can see how much you’re hiding, and at the same time, you hope they don’t.

You shrink. Inside yourself. Everything feels too loud. Or too quiet. Or both.

Sometimes it’s a breakdown. Other times it’s a slow erosion.

People say “you’ve changed,” but they don’t understand.

You didn’t want to. You just... had to.

Something broke. Something shifted. And it wasn’t a phase—it was a death.



The Changed Bloom


Here’s what they don’t tell you: healing doesn’t mean going back to who you were.

It’s not a rewind. It’s not a reset.

It’s a reconstruction—with missing parts, new scars, and unfamiliar wiring.

You laugh again, but it’s softer. You love again, but with caution. You trust again, but not easily. You learn to breathe, but some breaths still tremble.

The person who emerges after struggle is not the person who went in.

They’re quieter. Wiser. Maybe a bit colder.

But stronger in ways that can’t be seen—like roots that survived a storm.

You are not broken. You are reshaped.


Grieving the Old Self


There’s grief in this kind of growth.

You miss who you were. You remember how simple things used to be—before the overthinking, before the panic, before the heaviness.

Before you had to explain why you canceled, why you didn’t text back, why you disappeared.

You try to bring pieces of that person back. But they don’t fit anymore.

You’ve outgrown them. Or outlived them. And that’s okay.

It’s okay to mourn your former self while learning to love the person you’re becoming.


The Flower Still Lives


Death of a flower doesn’t mean the end of the garden.

In many ways, you are still blooming—just differently.

Maybe not with the same color. Maybe not in the same season. But you’re here.

That counts. That matters.

You are still someone worth tending to.

Mental health changes people. And those changes are real. They’re not just moods or phases. They’re transformations.

Stories written in silence, in midnight tears, in quiet victories no one sees.

If you know someone who’s different now, don’t ask them to be who they were. Love who they are. Witness who they’re becoming.

And if that someone is you—please know this:

You are not a wilted flower. You are a survivor in bloom.

You are proof that even in loss, there can be quiet beauty.

 
 
 

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